Friday, October 30, 2009;
Today,i have class test.i woke up at 6am coz meeting my gf at 8am near her blk.Her test start at 10am.so we have 1hr to revise.after revison they went to take the test.alot ting happen,i study wit 3 different group n still i get 54% only.i study hard for it lorhh only get that.but nvm,at least i tried my best.after tat watch movie wit kaiwen,germaine n my gf.me n my gf had fight at 1st then still we end up wit a happy ending when we went back home.i wish everytime i wit her we alway wil hav happy ending.haha....dun understand wat i type nvm.i understand,coz i lazy to elaborate in details of wat happen.haha....
Posted on 8:12 AM
Sunday, October 18, 2009;
Today nothing much happening.but yesterday was fun at esplanade.bcoz get to hang out wit some new fwens.Also,get to enjoy watching IMPAK MAKSIMA,it was damn cool lahh.anw,its was a great day,then after i went to send my gf to tampinese.then yesterday i slept,i hav this strange n stupid dream which is we all went out as a group n my gf only entertain a guy n did not even bother to entertain me.but hopefully tat will nver happen.its juz a dream anw,but i still quite scared.
Posted on 5:06 AM
Friday, October 16, 2009;
Today i woke up late for school,but still manage to reach in time.as per normal i went school with my gf n some of our classmates.then 1st lesson was PE,run 2rounds then dismissed.LOL!!might as dun go.but anw after PE,we went to our school cafeteria to grab some drinks.then my gf not feeling well,n i damn worried bout her.but she told me not to worry then i dun worry.An hour later,we went to our class for lesson but before that we went to change to our school uniform.somehow,todays lesson i dun quite understand so ask my gf whether she knew how to do it.but she did not reply me.so i tot she was concentrating so i dun disturbed her.i cannot be selfish what rite?she oso nod to study.so after she finished,i was still doing my work due to i dun know todays lesson much,she pad my shoulder n i tink push her hand away which i dun even realized it?i was like concentrating on doing my work n i show her attitude coz she did not even to rply my questions.then i tink she emotional for awhile then after tat she ask me gt any problem wit my work?then she helped me did some practical questions tat i dun understood.after lesson,i could tell that she is angry wit me.so i tried to comfort n apologized to her.it took me like 15 to 20mins to get back her normal face.if not,she will give me "that" look .its quite sad though that this afternoon she can't go buy ring wit me coz she nid to go to marina barage n oso gt dance practice but we still buy ring at night. rather then i waiting for her practice to end,i went back home n rest 1st.then woke up,bathe wear my clothes n went out from my hous.i tot i was late but end up she is late again like usual but this time is differ,i feel pissed off,i dunno y?but coz i love her, i will be patient.wat a day?today i feel my heart was like full of hatred.hatred bcoz of her todays character,i told her i dun like her character today.then i can see her tears is almost dropping so i told dun cry n say sorie.its not like i going leave her,i only juz told her that i dun like her character only?but when she cried i feel guilty n sad coz it makes me feel tat i not a gud bf.i makes me feel that other guys other out there deserve her rather then me.i had nver love a girl this much b4 so u must understand my feeling,i wan to b the perfect bf for u.but i not even sure whether i capable enough after todays incident.so i rilli apologized for wat i did today.
Posted on 7:12 AM
Thursday, October 15, 2009;
Haha.....today nothing to do.juz anyhow update blog only.coz supposingly today go buy ring wit my gf but she gt dance.haizz....but nvm.so went back home do nothing, watch online movie.then msg my gf,suddenly i realise tat my hp getting lack bcoz of a lot of msgs of my gf tat i nver delete at all.then i choose the wan tat i wan to delete coz some of it is memoriable.then i accidentally saw this msg tat my gf send.it made me wan to cry.coz it shows me how much she love me n how i treat her last time.i felt so guilty.but now i nver treat her the same way as last time.n nowadays i always wonder whether her feelings towards me is still the same like last time n i hope tat can nver change.
Posted on 8:32 AM
Monday, October 12, 2009;
I dunno wat to say?but i felt lucky tat i found her as my gf.but sumting seems to b missing in me.i dun like the feeling tat i not gud enough her.i hate this jealousy feeling.y must there b jealousy inside my heart each time i have a relationship.i dunno y?but i try my best not to get jealous coz i will actually being unfair to the person i love.btw if u read this,dun tel me tat i hide secret from u coz hide secret is i keep it to myself but i nver hide, coz i show it in my blog. btw,i always had this crazy feeling tat u dun wan me.but i tink too much already ahh.i nver felt so deep in love wit a girl before in my life.but the weird ting is tat i at 1st not really in love wit u but now end up like fallen for u deep down in my heart.i wonder how u manage to capture my heart?but still even if i still deep in love wit u.i actually ready to let u go if u found a better guy than me,i more than happy to see u found ur true happiness.
Posted on 9:03 AM
